blah blah blah ending/beginning

The end is near, of yet another year
this one past taught lessons anew
made me do things i thought i'd never do
i grew a pair, with much despair
and kicked you to the curb
Then i made a few new ones
one was no better, while the rest are keepers
for them i am grateful
my heart abounds with joy
when i think of these new peeps
and its been many a moon since thats happened
The new year brings new goals
to be silenced like last
just don't hate me because i have goals
or i have dreams, after all
its why life is worth living
for the lucky ones, you may get a hug

Chilly Saturday Night Alone

You gave me chills and i froze,
i wanted to say that i can wait
but preservatives have never agreed
so they will die, on a shelf with all the rest.
Keep moving forward to keep the balance
but i really want to trip on you!

True Love?

I found my true love today.
It came in the shape of a tree
A partridge and a pear.
So beautiful, yet offered no response.

A new world

As snowflakes fall and cover this land
Memories hide below this false blanket
reminders of the agony one brings
all caused from expectation
but the movement continues.
Always forward, never back
Its time to clear a path to make my way
so i can get through to another day
and make better memories
just so they can get covered again

A quickie!

Can't you tell by my stare that i want to close on in and share some air!!

Baggage and Love

As i approach the cemetery gates, i see, they are narrow.
Thankfully i carry little baggage, i also walk alone.
Yet there is room beside me to fit through, but i have
yet to find someone who can keep up.
Most fall behind or slip because of the baggage they carry.

Lost love is still love,
It just takes on a different form
MEMORY
It becomes your new partner
Thus nurture it, hold it, dance with it
Life has to end, Love doesn't

ps. be thankful for all that has past, as it makes you who you are today

Synchronicity?

How can one find spiritual synchronicity using a machine made by man?
Time is relative, to a machine? Your number association is as falsely used as religion.
When you build a house, wouldn't you use a ruler of equal measure?
Time and dates are not produced using equal measures.
Thus the trauma and drama in your life.
Balance between physical and spiritual is found by removing the need for time.

Tick Tack Toe

This head rush is pleasing
but now i am just weezing
too big a drag, an now i'm reeling
with it comes this easy fealing
Didn't think there'd come a day
when tobacco would come my way

To You Know Who.

Assumptions come and go,
but choosing ignorance
is your way, ya know?
The truth will set you free,
at least thats whats said
and it's working for me,
You threw away a love,
a month before it was due
but thanks, i see the dove,
I'm not scared to be wrong
its been like that
for me, all along
You, ignore the truth,
just to be right.

Now i'm glad this is done.

Grumble.

Chamomile tea, lemon and honey
removes my belly from the funny

The Afghan Whigs.

Wall.

My wall is great
My wall is grand
You can't see my wall
From where you stand

You ask why i'm so bitter,
I ask why you're so vain.
I have this wall
It's built out of pain.

Last FM

Halloween is here and the haunting is gone
I can smile as i sing along
To the sweet sounds at last
The new tunes cranked full blast
At awe with the way it moves
all them folkie grooves
Hold me close like a sweet caress
It all started from a new BS

Meaning?

Is there a course for the meaning of life?
Or is there a meaning?
You live the meaning, we are all examples
of what it is to be alive
But to think there is a right way and a wrong way
is the cause of death itself
There is no right and no wrong
we just have to get along

Sanity

Got a new view of sanity
Only after the long view
of the insane has completed
The only sane human left
is locked in a padded room

What is that?

Its just a line of crumbs that will lead you to me

Music moves the Soul

To you, wherever you are tonight.

There is no rush, it's not like i need to get to work
I know you are there, and when we collide
the earth will shake, for something so grand
can't be ignored, can't be denied, just collide
like two protons in neutral territory
One day you will see, as will i
what the meaning of love is
Writing love letters in the snow
Not even the rain can wash it away
For its energy runs eternally

The path

I travel through this journey on path alone
i met you and thought i found a pair
We held hands and continued on
until one day i hit that stump
fell and scraped my knee
i lay in waiting for an outstretched hand
it never came
instead it continued on by your side.
i am now on my feet, all dusted off
going down my own path again
i can see the flowers and the bees
their beauty moves me
i am happy with what i see
For now i know its me
that holds the key to my destiny

Monday Meh in Mid October

Got my coffee and now i'm set,
A little Godiva, dark chocolate
And my pipe. Flip open the book
Now this is the way to spend your day
As my fire burns and sparks
I can now see it only needs me

Why? Right when i'm about to step out

i spent the day wading through the debris
crap left behind from a life lived long ago
non of this matters, i can pick up these shattered pieces
throw them into a box and store them until
that day comes again, when i need to sort through
my past to find meaning in this day i live
tomorrow i will awake to find that cold spot on my bed
i wish i could let the dog up, he knows the meaning
of unconditional.
Until the day i find anew, i will ponder and stew.

lets give thanks

Today's the day we give thanks
For all that we have, its great
I am especially thankful
for the people in my life
All those that bring me joy
and the ones that bring me grief
For without them i would be lost
I am also thankful for where i live
as i get to do as i wish

Grassy Ass

It's 1am

My biggest problem in life is i usually see people for who they are
Its tough to get through this, as i find that most of what hold people back
are simple little EGO based traits. People at their base level are brilliant
But you only get this when they are traumatized
Otherwise its in human nature to build oneself up to a level that
no one else will ever match. The only people they surround themselves with
are people who agree with them. Yes men they say. I will not say
i have no ego, but i am fully aware when my ego is at play.
Most are not. You are not better than i, and i am not better than you
It's all about the learning experience.
Teach and learn

It's that simple

muah!

...

Its a front can't you see. An armor that protects me.
Nothing more, nothing less. But for it's reasons are yours to guess

Roses!

I wonder if the roses notice.
They could be busy too.
Or are we really busy?
We have yesterday in our back pocket
and tomorrow on the calender
But today i have roses.
Wanna smell?

Mission Accomplished

As my past regrets would haunt, i thought it was me doing wrong. But as i look at the path i travelled all i see is beauty. It is now known that i have done as i intended. These are not regrets no more, but a mission accomplished. These pieces that were broken are now better off than when they started. Time to walk a new path where nothing needs fixing, to ease the burden i have placed on this heart.

"Calamities have opened my heart and
Tears have cleansed my eyes, and
Errors have taught me the language
Of the hearts"

A snippet from Kahlil Gibran's "Leave me, My Blamer" poem.

IMO the most sighted writer to have graced my eyes and ears.

Cycle

Sitting here i feel the pain
of this October rain
it rolls away in a stream
to a place far from here
the cycle will start over again
and soon it will be resurrected
white fluffy lovely snow
that makes you smile
while causing grief
till it melts away
into a stream
to start the cycle over again

An oldie...

Pulled this one out of the journal from a couple months back......


You held me down to see your eyes
Within them i despise
The beauty that lies inside
It holds me tight to solid ground
Except i could see no one around
To give me the breathe that i desired
Filling my sails is what's required

Love?

I sometimes wonder what it would be like to have everyone love you
Would it be the greatest thing in the world?
I highly doubt it, as with those feelings come the expectations
Love is not unconditional, you have to give something up for it
You would be empty if everyone loved you.
Or would their love fill your soul so you could arise to the expectations
And prove what it is you have to bring.
This is the lesson that must be learned
As its failure will torment your soul
Unless of course you are lucky enough to find that one unconditional love
Then that is all you will need to complete your soul.
Love is truly the fuel that burns inside everyone of us
And its what drives me. My love for all.
If our are lucky enough to read this
Let it be known that you are thought of often.
And hold a special place in my heart and soul

once again a new tune

very fitting in this day, listen to the lyrics....brilliant IMO anyways

Winter

I awake at the edge of winter
to these new feelings of relief
that flow upon me like the rain
they fill my soul with the saturated
feeling of completion
flowing down my soul
to my feet and into the gutter
with everything else
if only i could have one thing,
just a pinch,
so i can rise from this dream and awake

Sad songs say it better....

On this Path i Walk Alone?

Drudging through the depths of another day, i often stop and say,
What will it take to bring this joy i give to everyone,
I see the smiles, i feel the love, yet i'm not yet done,
Searching for that piece i need to be complete,
with my luck it's right here under my seat,
So its time to get up and move, take control,
And get this life on a roll,
The past is there right behind,
Its not moving so i'll be fine
Can see the road ahead and its bright as the sun
I get excited as i realize that its full of fun
These new peeps who lift me up are here to stay
Cause its bout time i learn to say
the things i need to cover my ass
cause in the past i've been shown no class.
No more rhyming i mean it
anybody want a peanut

P.S. I Love You

I just want to run, but why? It was so much fun
We laughed we cried, but did we even try?
Now i'm left walking alone, thinking of what is gone.
I run and dive down this slope, cause all thats left is hope.
So one day i can put this to rest, And stop taking everything in jest.

Jest, now thats a good one.


If you're reading this you must know,
It's my life and i need to grow,
I know you're here for me,
Just that thought brings me glee,
Now that only leaves one thing left to do,
P.S. I love you

Anchor

I am here, waiting for my life to begin. My kindness is my only anchor. It's time to raise anchor and set sail on my solo journey. It will be there to remind me of who i am and who i was. But it will never stop me from reaching my destination.

Destination......unknown.

Within my sails sings the sound of the most beautiful breeze. A breeze that has touched the souls of every one it meets. Its effect is great joy. And with this joy is a fulfillment of a heart that has forever been forsaken. With this i offer my grace to you.

Flava of the week:

I'm diggin this tune alot right now. Minus the Bear is the band, Knights is the song

Stick this in your pipe

Packed right down in the bowl
You wasted time, my life was whole

I gave it all but in the end
You ran away around the bend

To one who made it look better
Swooned by a players love letter

Such an act would make it easy
I never dug girls who were sleazy

I'm done with your ungrateful soul
Thats why i sit and pack this bowl

I hold my lighter firm and lit
Stick that in your pipe and smoke it

A New Day

Today my heart breaks through the clouds, it sings as it feels the release from an unwanted grasp. Today my heart swings.

Brrrr......

I can see the shiny signs of winter today.

Lots of reflection and wet noise.

Feel the cold below your feet.

Drip, Drip

Drip, Drip

Good Bye summer